freakishly MSN

kittyyy says:
u know enta aw2at btkoun strange shwaya
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
iam always strange ..
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
its just i dont show it all the tine
kittyyy says:
bas ur nice although ur strange
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
im not always nice
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
whats strange about me
kittyyy says:
ur thoughts
kittyyy says:
and especially that dark side of u
kittyyy says:
ifeel its not u
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
cuz it's not
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
it's the other one in me
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i told u .. split personality disorder =)]
kittyyy says:
no way
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i am 2 people
kittyyy says:
and which one do iknow
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i dont know .. when one is functioning the other is hidden
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
did i act strange in any of our .. 3 meetings ? .. we met 3 times didnt' we ? unless u met HIM then i dont know about that
kittyyy says:
no u didnt u were very niceeee
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
then u met Abbasito
kittyyy says:
good
kittyyy says:
and the other one shu esmo
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
The Dark One
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
he has no name
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
he was Angelo but i controlled Angelo and i joined him with Abbasito
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
cuz it just wasn't right
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
The Dark One .. u dont wana meet .. believe me
kittyyy says:
no idont wanna meet
kittyyy says:
that one
kittyyy says:
i prefer the one iknow
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
not violent or anything .. just ..
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
hehe
kittyyy says:
just dark
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
archaic .. medieval dark ..
kittyyy says:
but why
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
he thinks he's the Dark Lord
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
cuz im a freak
kittyyy says:
and what made u afreak
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
...
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i cant answer .. he can
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i can summon him
kittyyy says:
ya salaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam
kittyyy says:
tayeb khalih nayem ahssan
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
too late
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
The Dark One lives on Flesh of the Living .. He occupied this mortal's body for Breeding Purposes ..
kittyyy says:
mashallah
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
no no .. shut up .. go away .. the power of Christ compels you
kittyyy says:
ya habibi eh da kolo
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
ok .. seriously .. don't test his patience
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
... somehow i have a feeling IM NEVER SEEING YOU AGAIN
kittyyy says:
woooooooooooow
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
ok .. seriously .. mona .....
kittyyy says:
why
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
hope i didnt scare you ...
kittyyy says:
nop
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
many people run away .....
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
good
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
ure a real friend ...
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
but u said it "it's not you" and it's soooo me and it's really fucked up i dont know !!
kittyyy says:
hek my heart tell me
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
keef ya3ni ? ...
kittyyy says:
eno its not u
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
so who did all those things ?
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
it was me
kittyyy says:
yup
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
so its a part of me
kittyyy says:
but its some sort of a facade
kittyyy says:
or something u hide behind some times
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
its too deep .. a facade is a mask to show
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i dont hide .. it surfaces
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
its the other way around
kittyyy says:
something that u surround urself wiz
kittyyy says:
to creat that dark image
kittyyy says:
maybe to scare some ppl or to show that ur strong
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
neither
kittyyy says:
or to hide some weakness that u dont like to show
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
question
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
wat is so stange about a guitar + converse shoes?
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
what triggered this reaction in u today ?
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
or is it smthg u were just waiting to tell me ?
kittyyy says:
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
kittyyy says:
no hek just remmebred that dark thing u said ysterday
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
wat did i say yesterday ?
kittyyy says:
u daid that u have adark side or dark character
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
dotn we all ?
kittyyy says:
yup but not that sacary
kittyyy says:
kittyyy says:
but ididnt mean anything just something iwanted to ask u about
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i see
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
so IT IS scary
kittyyy says:
cuz ihate darkness
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
dont u think there's even a 1% chance that iam sick in the head ?
kittyyy says:
nop
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
it might happen to anyone
kittyyy says:
maybe
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
remember when i told u i used to chew on Ibuprofen like candy ?
kittyyy says:
yup
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
and that was cuz i enjoyed it ?
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
it numbed me ..
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
all that screaming agony ...
kittyyy says:
agony from what
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
couldnt get no XanaX or Prozac .. so .........
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i dont know now ... if u asked me then id have given u a million reaosns ... none of which makes much sense to me now
kittyyy says:
u were addicted to it
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
to pain
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
and cutting
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
and misery
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
such a rush ...
kittyyy says:
iused to take it to stop my toothach
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
good
kittyyy says:
so dy2tak bklami
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
no
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
im not used to people confronting me about it
kittyyy says:
tab 3eni f3enak
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
no one wants to wake the beast
kittyyy says:
iwas jsu tryin to know more about u
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
when the time is right
kittyyy says:
now its not the right time
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
i need to look deep in ur eyes .. and see whats going on .. ure like my sister and i feel what i say might hurt u cuz i know u care for me
kittyyy says:
good
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
so the moment my tongue wanders and i see a change in ur eyes ill stop ..
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
thats why now its impossible cuz i cant see ur reaction
kittyyy says:
imade no reactions
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
im sure u did
kittyyy says:
the only reaction was worried eno koun z3ltak
Angelo - it's really amazing i found all my passions together ... says:
never
kittyyy says:
goood

on MSN ... 5 min. ago

N says:
thank god i have friend who can understand my fucking head
N says:
u

Top 13 Reasons Why I Love Amy Winehouse

13) Massive talent (guitar playing, singing and writing.)

12) Her face : ok so she's not pretty but she has this je ne sais qui ..

11) Those gorgeous deep slough eyes.

10) Lips not bad either ..

9) All those tats (& that piercing.)

8) Raw, edgy, and obviously doesn't give a fuck about anyone.

7) The fact that she's addicted to every bloody thing on the planet and yet she puts Joss Stone and all the other cry babies in a tin can.

6) Just the fact that she's addicted to every bloody thing on the planet.

5) Gets arrested in the morning ... parties in the evening.

4) Openly battled bipolar depression and having eating disorders. (and who isn't fucked up these days, huh?...at least she admits it and is treating herself)

3) Rehab is for dumb babies like Lindsay & Britney.

2) She's a Virgo (September 16) .. yay ;)

..... and the top reason why I love Amy Winehouse is :

1) Amy won't die from an overdose. Period.

My Demise

I slashed my wrists today
Watched the running blood form her name as i lay,
In the final moments before drifting away..
All i had was a little time to pray..
I begged God for my soul to stay..
Please Lord i'm in dismay..
It shouldn't have ended this way,
It was hell on earth without her,so i chose the real hell, it's an easier debt to pay
I left smiling for I saw her face as i slipped away..
There at least i'll be where i belong, on the other bay ..

My Celebrity Look-Alikes

This is so cool .. MyHeritage.com can detect which celebrity you look like the most .. My result? I can't complain .. I think they've been too kind to me he he he ..

MIND LOCK

… Splashes of RED, that was all ..
… A distant scream, nothing more ..
No one could have thought of a better end .. maybe because no one could have thought of SUCH an end .. but I knew it all along, and I was fully prepared ..

There was going to be another beginning ..

Another time .. another realm ..

With eyes wide shut I woke up from what I thought was a (short) nap .. but short naps don't give you this warm, chilly feeling of sweet satisfaction .. they're more likely to give you a nasty headache .. Especially that I remember something like falling from the 666th floor or was it just a rushing bullet into my head ?
Around me was all (pitch) black - night? I couldn't tell .. but little by little things started to gain some light … or was it my eyes gathering light from all around ? quickly I discovered the expression “THINGS” isn’t quite useful in this case .. there was absolutely NOTHING in that place .. all my eyes could see was fog .. a whole mass of that milky color .. above, under, right and left , endless mist of infinite nothingness ..
I tried to look around .. but I simply couldn’t remember what to do.. should I turn my head around ? I don’t know ..
I tried to get on my feet , but I simply couldn’t remember what to do.. should I just pick them up ? I don’t know either ..
I reversed to my hands and tried to touch my face .. but again I was clueless ..
Then I realized that I was not able to THINK of what to do in the first place .. I don’t know how I realized that .. but once I did the fog seemed lighter - just around me .. I felt lighter myself .. I was rising off the ground .. although I am not sure I was laying on any sort of ground to begin with ..
All the resistance didn’t help me out so I gave up and I let myself float .. Strangely enough , my peaceful action reflected on my inside as my fears started to disappear ‘til I felt so calm that, for a while, I was about to fall asleep (again?) .. but I forced myself not to …
and I floated .. and floated .. and floated ..
Suddenly I stopped .. i felt higher .. it was cold in there .. but the scenery was the same, I couldn’t see or feel any land under my feet .. all but this white (mist?) fog (smoke?) .. I couldn’t know .. I didn’t want to know .. all I wanted was to get the hell out of here and go where I am supposed to go, the true or even -cruel- world of lost souls .. I didn't care as long as there's something there instead of this suffocating bulk of white ...
But again, maybe this IS the place I’ve been looking for, maybe this IS the final destination, maybe this is where I am going to be for eternity .. and where are the others ? everyone else .. could it be I am the only one in here ? or do they give each one a “private suite” ? I laughed at the idea .. i laughed for a while, in my mind - because I couldn't (wouldn't) open my mouth (I didn't want any of the stuff to enter me. If I opened my mouth, it'll just come pouring in and fill me up like a stuffed toy and I'll explode and I'll be re-born in this hell-hole and I won't remember anything and I don't want to go through all this again Oh God I don't want to remember anything ..... ) before realizing that I’ve must gone crazy .. how did I realize that? (My mind was not attached to me anymore .. these ideas and thoughts come from somewhere else)

.. it’s not a dream .. it’s worse than any nightmare .. being all alone in that place could simply mean that .. I don’t know what it means .. I don’t know anything anymore .. I don’t belong to myself now .. I am a part of the whole .. I am one of the nothings in this God-forsaken place .. floating .. and waiting ..

June 1st

June 1st .. mid-year already ?!!

.. Hoping ... Dreaming ... Waiting ...